Okay so the title of this post may be a little over dramatic, but I'm getting really fed up now.
This time last year I loved having dark brown hair, but not I just want it gone. It's boring. So I've been majorly patient and let it grown out, not dyed it and been really careful with it. About a month ago you will all know I stripped my hair, and the results were amazing. However little did I know that the colour could come back if not rinsed properly- this happened. So I was back to my dark brown with super light roots. SO a few weeks later (and the Monday just gone) I decided to re-strip it. I rinsed it for much longer this time however the opposite happened, it didn't seem to strip my hair hardly at all. It maybe lifted one shade but the darkest bits of my hair failed to budge. SO by this point I was/am getting rather frustrated.
So I thought 'sod it' and went out and bought a permanent really light blonde from Nice N Easy. Now I've used these dyes for years, whether it be the permanents or semi permanent and I've always had fantastic results. So I thought at best it'd lift my hair a bit and turn it into a dark blonde/light brown maybe. WRONG. My roots went quite blonde, but the rest of my hair DIDN'T BUDGE! How is that possible? I knew it wouldn't go blonde but how did it not lift it a few shades, especially as it had ammonia and peroxide in.
SO I am at the end of my tether with my hair. I'm so careful of it and really don't want to damage it, but it's looking like going to the hairdressers and getting a full head of highlights will be my only option. Either that or relentlessly stripping it!
Anyway, rant over. Sometimes you just need to rant you know!! Let it all out. Sorry!
Has anyone else had these problems with their hair? If not, any funny stories?
This time last year I loved having dark brown hair, but not I just want it gone. It's boring. So I've been majorly patient and let it grown out, not dyed it and been really careful with it. About a month ago you will all know I stripped my hair, and the results were amazing. However little did I know that the colour could come back if not rinsed properly- this happened. So I was back to my dark brown with super light roots. SO a few weeks later (and the Monday just gone) I decided to re-strip it. I rinsed it for much longer this time however the opposite happened, it didn't seem to strip my hair hardly at all. It maybe lifted one shade but the darkest bits of my hair failed to budge. SO by this point I was/am getting rather frustrated.
So I thought 'sod it' and went out and bought a permanent really light blonde from Nice N Easy. Now I've used these dyes for years, whether it be the permanents or semi permanent and I've always had fantastic results. So I thought at best it'd lift my hair a bit and turn it into a dark blonde/light brown maybe. WRONG. My roots went quite blonde, but the rest of my hair DIDN'T BUDGE! How is that possible? I knew it wouldn't go blonde but how did it not lift it a few shades, especially as it had ammonia and peroxide in.
SO I am at the end of my tether with my hair. I'm so careful of it and really don't want to damage it, but it's looking like going to the hairdressers and getting a full head of highlights will be my only option. Either that or relentlessly stripping it!
Anyway, rant over. Sometimes you just need to rant you know!! Let it all out. Sorry!
Has anyone else had these problems with their hair? If not, any funny stories?
So originally I was going to blog about Christmas, and I do still plan on doing that, but a recent thought has gotten me thinking and thus me wanting to write about it.
So, it's occurred to me lately just how much I think about others. And I'm not calling myself a saint, nor am I saying that by thinking of others I am never thinking about myself. Of course it is good to think of others- more people should do so. It's just sometimes, along the way, some of us get so caught up in other people's lives or problems or needs, that we forget to stop and take care of our own. Sometimes we run from the things we know we have to do by using other people's issues as diversions from our own.
I, myself, tend to focus greatly on what others are doing and how it effects me. Or planning my life around other people. This often includes waiting around for people, and listening out for answers from them. In the process of constantly waiting, I could have done several things- but because my mind is focused purely on them, I feel like I cannot possibly get on with my life, until they have arrived, or answered for example. Does this make sense?
So I thought about my own life. My goals, my ambitions and my feelings. And although I love thinking about others and putting their needs before my own, I rarely get time to think about myself and plan what I do. My life is constantly controlled by other people, whether they know it or not. My actions are always influenced my other people and when I am by myself I often find myself thinking about what others would think or how they perceive me, or even what they may be up to. And although it is a very tricky habit to shake, I think it is important sometimes to be a bit selfish- not in a nasty way, but by loving ourselves and giving ourselves attention, we should begin to feel more at peace with our lives.
We shouldn't have to worry or plan our lives solely on other people. Having people in our lives should be seen as a gift, not a burden on our lives. We should care for others for sure, but sometimes it is acceptable to put ourselves first. To be able to forget all our queries and worries or stresses about family or friends, even for just a few hours to focus on ourselves, would truly be refreshing. So many people spend their lives looking after others, when really they should be looking after themselves.
So from now on, always remember to take time to treat yourself, pamper, or spend some time just being you. And if you are the type of person who always seems to be being looked after- maybe take some time to think about the people looking after you and thank them for being so selfless and loving.
So, it's occurred to me lately just how much I think about others. And I'm not calling myself a saint, nor am I saying that by thinking of others I am never thinking about myself. Of course it is good to think of others- more people should do so. It's just sometimes, along the way, some of us get so caught up in other people's lives or problems or needs, that we forget to stop and take care of our own. Sometimes we run from the things we know we have to do by using other people's issues as diversions from our own.
I, myself, tend to focus greatly on what others are doing and how it effects me. Or planning my life around other people. This often includes waiting around for people, and listening out for answers from them. In the process of constantly waiting, I could have done several things- but because my mind is focused purely on them, I feel like I cannot possibly get on with my life, until they have arrived, or answered for example. Does this make sense?
So I thought about my own life. My goals, my ambitions and my feelings. And although I love thinking about others and putting their needs before my own, I rarely get time to think about myself and plan what I do. My life is constantly controlled by other people, whether they know it or not. My actions are always influenced my other people and when I am by myself I often find myself thinking about what others would think or how they perceive me, or even what they may be up to. And although it is a very tricky habit to shake, I think it is important sometimes to be a bit selfish- not in a nasty way, but by loving ourselves and giving ourselves attention, we should begin to feel more at peace with our lives.
We shouldn't have to worry or plan our lives solely on other people. Having people in our lives should be seen as a gift, not a burden on our lives. We should care for others for sure, but sometimes it is acceptable to put ourselves first. To be able to forget all our queries and worries or stresses about family or friends, even for just a few hours to focus on ourselves, would truly be refreshing. So many people spend their lives looking after others, when really they should be looking after themselves.
So from now on, always remember to take time to treat yourself, pamper, or spend some time just being you. And if you are the type of person who always seems to be being looked after- maybe take some time to think about the people looking after you and thank them for being so selfless and loving.
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anxiety,
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Relaxation
Sometimes we fill our lives with social plans and studies and work, that we forget about one very important thing- relaxation. We may feel like we have no time for it or that cramming lots of activities into small amounts of time is the same as relaxing as you are spending your 'free time'. However free time can be seen and used in different ways.
In my opinion, free time is what I call the time I spend alone relaxing by myself and doing the little things that I want to do- like watching my favourite show or playing my guitar. To others free time may be what they call their social life. Or they may be one of those people who HAS to be doing something social to be having a good time and feel relaxed.
I am here to express the importance of relaxation. Which I'm sure you all already know, but as I sit snuggled up in my duvet at 5pm on a Tuesday, I have decided that I want to stress how wonderful it is to 'chill' and relax. It's just so cosy and warm and makes all the little things and problems go away for a while. I'm not suggesting you run away from problems but sometimes you want to just curl up and that's okay!
I believe it is important to spend time by yourself, whether it be napping, shopping, jogging etc whatever it is you like doing. This is because sometimes we spend so much time helping others or listening to others that we forget to listen to ourselves. We need time alone in order to catch up with ourselves and think about what it is that we want, and how we feel. You need time to gather your thoughts and organise your time so that stress is gradually eliminated.
So next time you have a few hours free, instead of planning outings or social events, take some time to be by yourself and enjoy your own company. You'll feel more refreshed and calm and happier about your routine and life. Time alone sometimes can be good for you! :)
In my opinion, free time is what I call the time I spend alone relaxing by myself and doing the little things that I want to do- like watching my favourite show or playing my guitar. To others free time may be what they call their social life. Or they may be one of those people who HAS to be doing something social to be having a good time and feel relaxed.
I am here to express the importance of relaxation. Which I'm sure you all already know, but as I sit snuggled up in my duvet at 5pm on a Tuesday, I have decided that I want to stress how wonderful it is to 'chill' and relax. It's just so cosy and warm and makes all the little things and problems go away for a while. I'm not suggesting you run away from problems but sometimes you want to just curl up and that's okay!
I believe it is important to spend time by yourself, whether it be napping, shopping, jogging etc whatever it is you like doing. This is because sometimes we spend so much time helping others or listening to others that we forget to listen to ourselves. We need time alone in order to catch up with ourselves and think about what it is that we want, and how we feel. You need time to gather your thoughts and organise your time so that stress is gradually eliminated.
So next time you have a few hours free, instead of planning outings or social events, take some time to be by yourself and enjoy your own company. You'll feel more refreshed and calm and happier about your routine and life. Time alone sometimes can be good for you! :)
Sometimes in life, we are approached by opportunities that leave us questioning whether or not we should cross over the bridge to a possible future or stay put for fear of losing what we already have. This will occur a lot in life- sometimes the bridges are tiny but sometimes they are huge.
These bridges could come in the form of a new relationship or friendship, or a new job/career or even a chance to start college or university. What ever shape of form these opportunities come in, we should look at them with care. Making decisions can be very hard and sometimes all it does is highlight our uncertainty in what we want to get out of life- this then leads to many, many headaches. But alas... relax. Everyone has to make hard choices every now and again, just like you. Perhaps it isn't so much the decision that is hard for you-perhaps it is what comes afterwards that causes your head to hurt and the anxiety to begin. For example starting a new job can be daunting. It's all very exciting when you hear that you have been successful in earning the job but what comes next tends to be anxiety mixed with feelings of doubt, nerves and worry. You end up asking yourself 'Will I like the job?' or 'Will I make friends?'. Then you end up telling yourself 'Everything will probably go wrong!' or 'You'll be too nervous to talk to people!'. But why? You don't know how things will go and putting ideas such as these in your head will only prevent you from attempting to enjoy work/make friends.
If we approach things will a little more ease, and with less worry and anxiety, we probably will feel a lot more comfortable. When we are comfortable, we are relaxed and we can start to enjoy ourselves and be ourselves with the people around us. I know it isn't easy, and we can just tell ourselves to snap of of it, but the realisation will be the start of turning around your emotions.
How I try to look at things:
I am usually a nervous wreck, and everything written above is largely based on my own feelings and experiences. However I know that most people also feel this way about situations that they feel they have no control over. So here are my tips to help get through things:
1.) Remember you DO have control over things. You control how you act and behave. So it is up to you whether you choose to do something or not. No one can make you do anything. If you are not happy or comfortable doing something, then do not settle for it or do it.
2.) If you, like me, get really nervous before things (e.g. entering a room full of new colleagues who all know each other) count to 10 in your head and breath. Knowing that in ten seconds you have to do something ( walk into room) allows you to prepare yourself and also relax. If you aren't counting then perhaps you may never want to enter the room- however counting to 10 prompts you to do it! I have found this to help a little with nerves.
3.) Remembering that time only goes on. Time cannot stop or go backwards. Time is only moving forwards. So if you're worried about a long period of time, just remember that each minute, each second even, you are closer to the end of that time period and a step closer to achieving.
4.) My motto when doing something nerve wracking is 'You'll get through this'. I use this because yes, we spend so much time worrying about something and telling ourselves 'I can't do this!', when in fact of course we can! You know that soon you'll be doing it. Always think 'this time in two hours* I'll be finished and getting a coffee'. No matter how hard something may seem, you know you're going to get through it, you're going to do it, and soon it'll be done. (This may seem confusing but it works for me!)
5.) Give yourself something to look forward to afterwards. Planning on seeing a friend or loved one after said events can help you relax during. Knowing that you HAVE to get through it in order to do the fun things you have planned for afterwards, allows you to feel more positive and relaxed. It could even be something small, like having a bubble bath, with bath bombs, candles and a glass of wine- whatever takes your fancy!
Sometimes in life we face hard times and hard decisions, but life always has a way of working things out. Be positive, be confident, be happy and most of all be you and be proud. Happiness is so important and if you're happy- it'll show and everyone will know. Not only will you feel better for it, but it'll have a much better effect on other aspects in life!
Good luck!! X
Fresher's week is always a much awaited time for students to-be. For a lot of students, it offers a chance to be wild and free, and a perfect way to celebrate living away from Mum and Dad. It's hard to know what to expect before experiencing it as it is not the same as going on a one off night out. Here are some things you can expect from 'Fresher's week'- or in some Universities' case 'Fresher's Fortnight':
1.) Fresher's flu is NOT a myth. You WILL get ill during your first few weeks. This is because there are so many people, all in a new environment, and it is easy to spread germs and illnesses.
2.) You will be handed flyers everywhere you go and you will end up with a room full of them by the end of the week.
3.) Foam parties can be dangerous if you're not overly tall!
4.)Your halls will look worse for wear when you wake up every morning.
5.) Queues will be massive and you will wonder, when you finally get in, if your first year is already over because you've been standing in the queue for that long.
6.) Everyone is overly friendly. Be careful.
7.)You'll eat a lot of fast food.
8.)You'll get sick of your 'Fresher's Week' wristband getting soaked every time you shower, wash your hands or wash up, and staying wet for the rest of the day.
9.)Flat/House parties will probably end up being better than the events.
10.) You may not make it into all of your University lectures. Or if you do, it's probably because you have just stayed awake from the night before.
11.) Fresher's Fayre will make you feel like you are a herd of cattle, and you'll feel as though someone will 'moo' at any given moment.
12.) You'll have been persuaded to enter an empty night club, just because you were all too polite to walk away.
13.) Even if you haven't gone out, you won't sleep due to all the racket going on outside- both from club music and people having arguments in the courtyards at 4am.
14.) All your shoes will be sticky from people spilling their drinks down you whilst you try to squeeze past them to go to the toilet when in night clubs.
15.) And finally, you'll realise you've spent too much money, and you'll try to make a plan where you live off £5 a week- which only one day later won't work out as you've bought another kebab to 'save on washing up', when we all know it's because you're too lazy to cook.
1.) Fresher's flu is NOT a myth. You WILL get ill during your first few weeks. This is because there are so many people, all in a new environment, and it is easy to spread germs and illnesses.
2.) You will be handed flyers everywhere you go and you will end up with a room full of them by the end of the week.
3.) Foam parties can be dangerous if you're not overly tall!
4.)Your halls will look worse for wear when you wake up every morning.
5.) Queues will be massive and you will wonder, when you finally get in, if your first year is already over because you've been standing in the queue for that long.
6.) Everyone is overly friendly. Be careful.
7.)You'll eat a lot of fast food.
8.)You'll get sick of your 'Fresher's Week' wristband getting soaked every time you shower, wash your hands or wash up, and staying wet for the rest of the day.
9.)Flat/House parties will probably end up being better than the events.
10.) You may not make it into all of your University lectures. Or if you do, it's probably because you have just stayed awake from the night before.
11.) Fresher's Fayre will make you feel like you are a herd of cattle, and you'll feel as though someone will 'moo' at any given moment.
12.) You'll have been persuaded to enter an empty night club, just because you were all too polite to walk away.
13.) Even if you haven't gone out, you won't sleep due to all the racket going on outside- both from club music and people having arguments in the courtyards at 4am.
14.) All your shoes will be sticky from people spilling their drinks down you whilst you try to squeeze past them to go to the toilet when in night clubs.
15.) And finally, you'll realise you've spent too much money, and you'll try to make a plan where you live off £5 a week- which only one day later won't work out as you've bought another kebab to 'save on washing up', when we all know it's because you're too lazy to cook.
So a few years ago I used to bleach my hair. It was almost white, and I kept bleaching it when my roots came through. I really didn't know that much about hair and hair care, and soon enough I started to notice my hair seemed to be getting shorter. 'How could this happen?' I'd question. I didn't realise that hair could break off or fall out due to damage from hair dying and bleach. My parents told me I was probably imagining it, but after a while we knew I wasn't. My hair was so badly damaged that it would just snap off at the ends and wouldn't get any longer- not good considering it was already short and I was aiming to grow it.
I knew that no amount of hair care would help this, so I took the huge decision to have a big hair cut. I had to have it all cut off into a short bob in order to get rid of all the split ends. Before that I had stopped bleaching and the roots were much healthier. I had a full head of highlights to cover up the roots along with my hair cut ( to neaten everything up). I really hated having to have my hair cut off, but luckily the hairdresser did an excellent job and I liked my new do. However I still had aimed to grow it. So from here I rarely ever used heat i.e straighteners or hair dryers. I'd only ever dyed the roots using semi permanent colours and soon enough I started to notice a different in my hair. Not using bleach and having my split ends chopped off had made a huge difference to the condition of my hair. After a while I realised that dying my hair light was too hard to maintain, so a few years later I decided to dye my hair brown.It made a huge difference as once I had the colour I only ever needed to use semi permanent hair dye and have done to this day. I never use straighteners and rarely blow dry my hair and my hair is now quite long. However recently I started to notice my hair was in bad shape again, it seemed to be falling out in strands like there was no tomorrow. I started to worry, what was damaging my hair? I knew I needed something drastic to help my hair before I ever did any hair dying or styling again.
So now, I put warm olive oil in my hair once a week- this gives natural oils back to your hair which makes it glossy and strong. I also use a Tresemme deep conditioning mask every other day and leave it in my hair for about 10 minutes. The results have been fantastic, my hair is no longer dry or brittle but feels nourished and healthy and strong. I also use Tresemme's split end remedy when I need to and an Elvive product for my roots.My advice for anyone who is planning to dye their hair, before you do so spend a few weeks prepping your hair. Make sure you hair is healthy enough that dying you hair won't further damage it too much. I now know that the next time I dye my hair, it'll be ready!
All girls dislike greasy, messy hair. Well most, I am yet to meet anyone who has said to me 'I love having greasy hair'- because that'd be weird. If I had it my way I'd wash my hair everyday, because I love feeling fresh (well if I had it my way, hair would never get dirty in the first place), however I know now that washing hair isn't always what's best for it. So now that I wash my hair every other day, I thought it'd be interesting for me to share with other likeminded women, how I prep my hair on it's second day. Exciting I know.
First of all, the obvious step, and I'm not going to insult your intelligence by descibing how to brush hair. But yes, basically brush your hair well, but carefully. If you're having loads of hair come out, it's probably partially due to rough brushing. So be kind to it!
My hair, like many others i'm sure, gets greasy pretty quickly, and what's more off putting is that it feels greasy or hot, sometimes even if it doesn't look it. So for my second day hair, I need something that'll take this feeling and appearance away. I'm sure you all know what is coming.... dry shampoo. When it comes to dry shampoo I don't always have a preference. The ones i've used have all done their job, however the one I'm using at the moment, and have probably bought the most is Batiste.
Batiste Dry Shampoo comes in lots of different scents or as I was about to say, flavours, but I wouldn't recommend tasting them! I spray about 20-30cm away from my hair in the places I need it (which is everywhere to be honest) and then massage through with my hands as if I were washing my hair- just not too much else you'll cancel out what it just did. Then brush it through a bit, so you don't have any dusty looking hair. If there is anything worse than greasy hair, it's looking as if you've been sat on a shelf for years/you have prematurely grey hair. Then voila, you hair feels so much better. This is a must have in your holiday bags, and great for students or working women who don't have time to wash hair everyday!
I get plenty of split ends (the little buggers) so my next step is to make sure I've treated them. I can't stand the throught of second day hair bunged up in a bun, without any split end protection. Just imagine your hair bobbles declaring war on your ends and chopping all their heads off. You're hair is going to get shorter if you don't take care of your split ends, and continue to throw your hair back in to a messy updo! I hate to say it girlies, but the messy bun isn't always our best friend! :( Now I swear by Tresemme's Split End Remedy. I've been using this for a few years now, and I really do think it has magical powers. I don't go without this now, and to be honest it isn't that expensive! I put this remedy through the mid to end parts of my hair, making sure not to put it further up and cancel out Batiste's work. After using this, I feel more confortable styling my hair as I am reassured that my hair will be in a much better condition and won't be so frail and brittle!
After this my final step it to style it. If i'm feeling really confident I may leave my hair down, but that only happens once in a blue moon. Usually I'll pop it up in a lose pony tail or lose topnot and clip my bangs back out of my face.
That's my second day hair regime. Maybe it was of use to you. Maybe it wasn't.
X
Cooking is fun, and honestly doesn't have to be as hard as some people or recipe books make out. In my eyes, if something tastes yummy, it is a success! So I've got for you my quick, easy and simple cupcake recipe, which is a summer favourite of mine! Try it out and send me your pics!
Ingredients:
4oz Stork Margarine
4oz Caster Sugar
2 Eggs
4oz Self-Raising Flour
1 Teaspoon of Baking Powder
Vanilla Essence
Icing:
Stork Margarine
Spoons Icing Sugar
Step 1: Obviously make sure you have all of the above ingredients- there's nothing worse than starting to bake and half way through realising you haven't got one of the key ingredients!! Pre-heat your oven to about 190 degrees!
Step 2: Weigh out 4oz of margarine and put into a mixing bowl- now it doesn't have to be Stork, but stork is specifically for cakes!
Step 3: Weigh out 4oz of caster sugar and pour into the same mixing bowl.
Step 4: Mix the marg and sugar until light and fluffy!
Step 5: Add two eggs, one at a time. Give them a quick sniff before hand to ensure they aren't bad eggs! I once forgot, and soon learnt my lesson, after having to start again because of the smell!
Step 6: Beat the mixture together, being careful not to let it curdle!
Step 7: Weigh out 4oz of self-raising flour and and sieve into the mixture.
Step 8: Add a teaspoon of baking powder to the mixture.
Step 9: Mix in a circle of 8 pattern to allow the air to get in to the mixture!
Step 10: Add vanilla essence for yumminess! :)
Step 11: Pour into paper cases on baking trays and pop them in the oven for around 10-15 minutes depending on how golden you want them!
Step 12: Once cooked and cooled you are ready for the icing. Mix together marg and icing sugar. This is where I usually estimate because it all depends on how buttery/sweet you like it and how much of it you want!
Voila! Sweet cakes! This process all in all probably takes about 40 minutes, if you include cooling time!
Hope you enjoy my recipe as much as I do! Mmmm delish!
I know people love a good ol' 'How To' blog post, myself including, so I thought it was about time I did another. I don't know how helpful it will be but I suppose we shall fathom that at the end. So recently I been a little down and I sat at my desk all alone, feeling sorry for myself, and it got me pondering happiness.
Sure, we all feel down and sometimes we feel really down and we think that happiness is so far out of reach or for some is an impossible task. But I soon realised it wasn't. Sometimes when we're down, we see happiness as something enormous and difficult to get, which then only makes us feel worse. We sometimes feel as though we are never going to be perfectly happy. So whilst pondering, I thought I would list down some steps as to being happy. Now of course I'm not saying these will definitely work or that they are scientifically proved, but they have helped me.
1.) Realisation- Sometimes even WE don't know why we are sad, we just are. And not knowing can make things worse, which is why I feel it is best to ask yourself and really dig deep, 'Why am I sad? What is causing my sadness?' Now it will take time, and there are days when we are literally down for no reason, but usually there will be a reason, and once you've figured out what it is, you'll be able to understand your emotions and perhaps overcome it.
2.) Acceptance- Accept the situations, accept your life and accept yourself. This is tricky. I won't sit here and act like it'll be easy. I still have a lot of work to do on this step. I find it hard to accept things in life, things that aren't fair and make me ask 'why me?'. But getting wound up about something won't necessarily change it. Unfortunately in life, things aren't always fair, and they do suck! But it is how we react and go about them that will result in a happier self. We sometimes have to just ACCEPT that there will be bad times, and some days we will be sad. But that's okay, we're only human.
3.) Talk to people- bottling up emotions is never good. Hell, I've tried, and I'm sure you all have too. So maybe you feel most comfortable with a friend or maybe your sibling or your mother, who ever you feel is the right person to talk to, talk to them. Even if they have no opinion on the matter, just having someone to listening will feel great. And once you've ranted and gotten everything off you chest, a huge weight will be lifted. Will the problem be solved, no probably not, but you'll feel happier for sharing. And besides that's what your friends and family are for.
4.) Don't be angry- We all get angry from time to time, I get angry a lot. But what does anger really solve- nothing. So it's a whole lot of wasted energy resulting in nothing. It's so much better to just brush it off your shoulder and let it go. Need I sing Frozen's 'Let It Go' here? I know we all want to get angry sometimes, not that its a nice feeling but in some ways I feel as though because it is one of the stronger emotions we feel more certain and powerful, which can often give us a rush of adrenaline. But wouldn't you rather have a happy adrenaline rush. If you face things positively they are much more likely to be resolved. So don't be angry, just stay calm and distract yourself with something that will make you laugh.
5.) Always make time for family- I know when you get to a certain age, all you want to do is hang out with your friends. And whilst friends are extremely important, nothing goes deeper than family. I know that I feel at my happiest when I am with my family. And if you are lucky enough to have a good family, then there is just so much unconditional support, comfort and love there waiting for you. Whenever I feel down, I think of my family and how crazy we are. It gives me strength . When you're with family, you can completely relax and be you.
6.) Do fun things- Sounds and obvious one but it can be the simplest of things. Such as going for a coffee with an old friend and catching up, or booking cinema tickets to a funny movie. Even a little stroll through the park with your partner, will be enough to make you feel like you did something productive with your day. I went for a 10 minute walk through the park with my boyfriend the other day- so simple- and it made me ridiculously happy! Or if these aren't your things, then whatever is, you should do them. Having something to look forward to or maybe something spontaneous, are really great, easy ways to stay positive and happy.
7.) Listening to happy music- Music can have such a strong impact on our emotions and mood. If I listen to a sad song, I feel sad. It goes without saying. So listen to a happy song in the car or whilst getting ready in the morning, it does a world of good!

8.) Stay cool- Whenever I get hot and bothered I feel angry and stressed. Whenever I'm walking somewhere, because I am a fast walker, I get hot very easily. So if you're like me, then plan extra time to walk, so you don't have to walk so fast, don't get out of breath, and you'll have more time to enjoy the walk. This sounds like a silly step, but like I said, sometimes it's the little things, that will determine anger/happiness.
9.) Treat yourself- I know some of us aren't exactly rich, so this one may be a little difficult. But I'm not suggesting you spend heaps of money all the time. Just every now and again or when you're feeling down, treat yourself. It could even be free, for example a relaxing evening away from work/study, with a face pack and a movie. I treated myself to a Domino's pizza the other night- totally worth it!
10.) Relax- It's so easy to get stressed these days. So why not try sleeping to some relaxing music. When I did that for a week, my sleeping was so much better and I felt a lot better for doing it. It can really help stress levels. Or if you're not in to that then meditation could work- although a little hard if you're a fidget like me! Whatever it is that you find relaxing, a bubble bath maybe, it'll help you wind down from the day and you'll see that anger wash away!
Now I hope these little tips have helped. Of course these aren't the only steps, but these were some I had thought of and wanted to share with you all! X
Sure, we all feel down and sometimes we feel really down and we think that happiness is so far out of reach or for some is an impossible task. But I soon realised it wasn't. Sometimes when we're down, we see happiness as something enormous and difficult to get, which then only makes us feel worse. We sometimes feel as though we are never going to be perfectly happy. So whilst pondering, I thought I would list down some steps as to being happy. Now of course I'm not saying these will definitely work or that they are scientifically proved, but they have helped me.
1.) Realisation- Sometimes even WE don't know why we are sad, we just are. And not knowing can make things worse, which is why I feel it is best to ask yourself and really dig deep, 'Why am I sad? What is causing my sadness?' Now it will take time, and there are days when we are literally down for no reason, but usually there will be a reason, and once you've figured out what it is, you'll be able to understand your emotions and perhaps overcome it.
2.) Acceptance- Accept the situations, accept your life and accept yourself. This is tricky. I won't sit here and act like it'll be easy. I still have a lot of work to do on this step. I find it hard to accept things in life, things that aren't fair and make me ask 'why me?'. But getting wound up about something won't necessarily change it. Unfortunately in life, things aren't always fair, and they do suck! But it is how we react and go about them that will result in a happier self. We sometimes have to just ACCEPT that there will be bad times, and some days we will be sad. But that's okay, we're only human.
3.) Talk to people- bottling up emotions is never good. Hell, I've tried, and I'm sure you all have too. So maybe you feel most comfortable with a friend or maybe your sibling or your mother, who ever you feel is the right person to talk to, talk to them. Even if they have no opinion on the matter, just having someone to listening will feel great. And once you've ranted and gotten everything off you chest, a huge weight will be lifted. Will the problem be solved, no probably not, but you'll feel happier for sharing. And besides that's what your friends and family are for.
4.) Don't be angry- We all get angry from time to time, I get angry a lot. But what does anger really solve- nothing. So it's a whole lot of wasted energy resulting in nothing. It's so much better to just brush it off your shoulder and let it go. Need I sing Frozen's 'Let It Go' here? I know we all want to get angry sometimes, not that its a nice feeling but in some ways I feel as though because it is one of the stronger emotions we feel more certain and powerful, which can often give us a rush of adrenaline. But wouldn't you rather have a happy adrenaline rush. If you face things positively they are much more likely to be resolved. So don't be angry, just stay calm and distract yourself with something that will make you laugh.
6.) Do fun things- Sounds and obvious one but it can be the simplest of things. Such as going for a coffee with an old friend and catching up, or booking cinema tickets to a funny movie. Even a little stroll through the park with your partner, will be enough to make you feel like you did something productive with your day. I went for a 10 minute walk through the park with my boyfriend the other day- so simple- and it made me ridiculously happy! Or if these aren't your things, then whatever is, you should do them. Having something to look forward to or maybe something spontaneous, are really great, easy ways to stay positive and happy.7.) Listening to happy music- Music can have such a strong impact on our emotions and mood. If I listen to a sad song, I feel sad. It goes without saying. So listen to a happy song in the car or whilst getting ready in the morning, it does a world of good!

8.) Stay cool- Whenever I get hot and bothered I feel angry and stressed. Whenever I'm walking somewhere, because I am a fast walker, I get hot very easily. So if you're like me, then plan extra time to walk, so you don't have to walk so fast, don't get out of breath, and you'll have more time to enjoy the walk. This sounds like a silly step, but like I said, sometimes it's the little things, that will determine anger/happiness.
9.) Treat yourself- I know some of us aren't exactly rich, so this one may be a little difficult. But I'm not suggesting you spend heaps of money all the time. Just every now and again or when you're feeling down, treat yourself. It could even be free, for example a relaxing evening away from work/study, with a face pack and a movie. I treated myself to a Domino's pizza the other night- totally worth it!
10.) Relax- It's so easy to get stressed these days. So why not try sleeping to some relaxing music. When I did that for a week, my sleeping was so much better and I felt a lot better for doing it. It can really help stress levels. Or if you're not in to that then meditation could work- although a little hard if you're a fidget like me! Whatever it is that you find relaxing, a bubble bath maybe, it'll help you wind down from the day and you'll see that anger wash away!
Now I hope these little tips have helped. Of course these aren't the only steps, but these were some I had thought of and wanted to share with you all! X
Have you ever felt like you have so much to give, yet you can't seem to give it? I know I have, and that's why I felt it was important to write about becoming the better you. We all have a version of ourselves that we like more, you know, the kind who always has an answer or come back? Well unfortunately most of the time we spend our days worrying and stressing about that person we want to be, that we forget about the real person who is dying to come out. So here are my 5 steps to becoming a better you....
Step 1.) Find out what it is that makes you happy.
It is extremely important that we feel comfortable doing what we do, and that usually comes with happiness. I know that I find my confidence when I am doing something I enjoy and feel comfortable with- I feel a lot happier about the way I am also. Doing the things that make us happy, will all round make us feel better about ourselves. It will allow us to forget about what others think of us and start enjoying the freedom away from our thoughts. Once you start enjoying yourself, those worries suddenly fade and you realise you stop thinking about them so much.
Step 2.) Take opportunities.
Don't pass up opportunities to do things. They may just be your big break, or chance to meet some wacky new people, or even try new foods. I know sometimes we feel nervous about taking opportunities, but once you take them, your confidence will rise and make you glad you did it. Also, if opportunities don't come to you, why not go to them. There is no harm in being bold and going for it, and putting yourself out there. For example, in business terms, instead of waiting for them to request you, email them and let them know who you are. Being bold and confident and pushy sometimes gets you further than you'd think. Don't hold back, just go for it! What have you got to lose?
Step 3.) Talk to people.
I used to always feel nervous talking to people, and worry about what I said or how I was perceived. Once you get over that barrier, you will be able to have good conversations without worrying. So stop and chat to people you know on the street. Ask about them and don't feel shy about telling them all about what you've been doing. Walking away from that conversation will make you feel happy, confident and in control- as if you handled the situation well. It sounds silly but trust me it works. So say hello to people and don't be afraid to ask questions and start discussions.
Step 4.) Get organised and be productive.
There is nothing worse that clutter and disorganisation. So tidy and clean and file etc. Make you work, or house, or even you blog look organised. Once you have you'll feel a weight has lifted and feel much more relaxed. Once you have relaxed you'll feel happier and productive. And more so, you will have more time on your hands to do things- such as arranging to go out with friends, or read, or shop!
Step 5.) Get in touch with who you really are.
Ask yourself 'Am I really the person who my head creates or is that just a fictitious character I have developed?'. Sounds complicated but let me argue my case. I always used to see myself in my head- an alter ego shall we say. And I always compared myself to her, and felt as though she was the real me. She was cooler, prettier and funnier and much more confident than I was. And it used to get me down just thinking about 'when will the outer me start acting like the inner me?'. So I asked myself, 'Is she really me? Am I capable of being her?' And the answer was mostly no. And do not be disheartened by this, I'm sure there are plenty of her/his qualities that you can learn from and alter to your heart's content. But do not rely on this alter ego. Be who you are and work on that. Be confident and do not hold back. Be proud of who you are and how you are.
I hope these 5 steps have helped. If you would like more tips and advice then please leave a comment!
Step 1.) Find out what it is that makes you happy.
It is extremely important that we feel comfortable doing what we do, and that usually comes with happiness. I know that I find my confidence when I am doing something I enjoy and feel comfortable with- I feel a lot happier about the way I am also. Doing the things that make us happy, will all round make us feel better about ourselves. It will allow us to forget about what others think of us and start enjoying the freedom away from our thoughts. Once you start enjoying yourself, those worries suddenly fade and you realise you stop thinking about them so much.
Step 2.) Take opportunities.
Don't pass up opportunities to do things. They may just be your big break, or chance to meet some wacky new people, or even try new foods. I know sometimes we feel nervous about taking opportunities, but once you take them, your confidence will rise and make you glad you did it. Also, if opportunities don't come to you, why not go to them. There is no harm in being bold and going for it, and putting yourself out there. For example, in business terms, instead of waiting for them to request you, email them and let them know who you are. Being bold and confident and pushy sometimes gets you further than you'd think. Don't hold back, just go for it! What have you got to lose?Step 3.) Talk to people.
I used to always feel nervous talking to people, and worry about what I said or how I was perceived. Once you get over that barrier, you will be able to have good conversations without worrying. So stop and chat to people you know on the street. Ask about them and don't feel shy about telling them all about what you've been doing. Walking away from that conversation will make you feel happy, confident and in control- as if you handled the situation well. It sounds silly but trust me it works. So say hello to people and don't be afraid to ask questions and start discussions.
Step 4.) Get organised and be productive.
There is nothing worse that clutter and disorganisation. So tidy and clean and file etc. Make you work, or house, or even you blog look organised. Once you have you'll feel a weight has lifted and feel much more relaxed. Once you have relaxed you'll feel happier and productive. And more so, you will have more time on your hands to do things- such as arranging to go out with friends, or read, or shop!Step 5.) Get in touch with who you really are.
Ask yourself 'Am I really the person who my head creates or is that just a fictitious character I have developed?'. Sounds complicated but let me argue my case. I always used to see myself in my head- an alter ego shall we say. And I always compared myself to her, and felt as though she was the real me. She was cooler, prettier and funnier and much more confident than I was. And it used to get me down just thinking about 'when will the outer me start acting like the inner me?'. So I asked myself, 'Is she really me? Am I capable of being her?' And the answer was mostly no. And do not be disheartened by this, I'm sure there are plenty of her/his qualities that you can learn from and alter to your heart's content. But do not rely on this alter ego. Be who you are and work on that. Be confident and do not hold back. Be proud of who you are and how you are.
I hope these 5 steps have helped. If you would like more tips and advice then please leave a comment!
So, many students are probably in the same boat- not having enough money for things they need even with a student loan. A lot of people think students have it easy, but it is untrue when you don't have enough money to buy food...
So I thought It'd be funny to write about the 20 signs that you are poor.
1.) Your cupboards and fridges are full of Everyday Value items from Tesco! And if not then your cupboards are empty!
2.) You spend a lot of time drinking Tea, gazing out of the window, watching other people have fun- because you have no money yourself to go out an do things.
3.) Primark becomes you place of worship.
4.) Lambrini is your answer to every night out because it seems like the only alcohol that is under £3.
5.) You spend way too much time looking for coupons and vouchers online. My friend actually typed 'Free Stuff' into Google the other night... no luck. Poor us. Apparently the Internet doesn't like to give out free stuff.... who knew right?
6.) You actually get excited buying healthy food, because it's been so long since you've been able to afford any.
7.) A new microwave miraculously appearing in the kitchen is the height of your week's excitement and entertainment.
8.) You continue to eat food that you made the night before and forgot to put in the fridge and has just been sitting there.... Mmm.
9.) You online shop a lot. And when I say online shop I mean online window shop, because you can't afford that kind of luxury.
10.) You are constantly running out of underwear and socks, and are forced to hand wash them, because the washing machines and tumble dryers are out of your price range and budget.
11.) You buy vitamins, because the food you can afford is no good for your health and is probably slowly making your insides rot.
12.) You walk everywhere, even if it means miles just to get a carton of milk. If transport isn't free, you're not on it.
13.) You go to any event that has 'free food' in the description. Even if you don't want to go to the event.
14.) Pre drinks are more fun than nights out because they are free- usually!
15.) Going to the pub to see friends but ordering a tap water or splashing out and buying a 20p lime cordial.
16.) Bulk buying takeaway so you can save it for future meals.
17.) Buying a house for second year that is practically on Lidl's doorstep, so to avoid the queues!
18.) Watching a Seagull, on it's nest because it kind of feels like watching the nature channel, and let's face it you couldn't afford that!
19.) Joining countless online survey sites in the chance you might earn £5 or a voucher for some unheard of shop.
20.) The only money you have a lot of is 2ps, which is brilliant for 2p machines at the arcade. If you win something... well that's just the best part of your week.
Okay so there you have it. I'm sure there are so many more. So please let me know what you have all experienced, whether as students or not.
So I thought It'd be funny to write about the 20 signs that you are poor.
1.) Your cupboards and fridges are full of Everyday Value items from Tesco! And if not then your cupboards are empty!
2.) You spend a lot of time drinking Tea, gazing out of the window, watching other people have fun- because you have no money yourself to go out an do things.
3.) Primark becomes you place of worship.
4.) Lambrini is your answer to every night out because it seems like the only alcohol that is under £3.
5.) You spend way too much time looking for coupons and vouchers online. My friend actually typed 'Free Stuff' into Google the other night... no luck. Poor us. Apparently the Internet doesn't like to give out free stuff.... who knew right?
6.) You actually get excited buying healthy food, because it's been so long since you've been able to afford any.
7.) A new microwave miraculously appearing in the kitchen is the height of your week's excitement and entertainment.
8.) You continue to eat food that you made the night before and forgot to put in the fridge and has just been sitting there.... Mmm.
9.) You online shop a lot. And when I say online shop I mean online window shop, because you can't afford that kind of luxury.
10.) You are constantly running out of underwear and socks, and are forced to hand wash them, because the washing machines and tumble dryers are out of your price range and budget.
11.) You buy vitamins, because the food you can afford is no good for your health and is probably slowly making your insides rot.
12.) You walk everywhere, even if it means miles just to get a carton of milk. If transport isn't free, you're not on it.
13.) You go to any event that has 'free food' in the description. Even if you don't want to go to the event.
14.) Pre drinks are more fun than nights out because they are free- usually!
15.) Going to the pub to see friends but ordering a tap water or splashing out and buying a 20p lime cordial.
16.) Bulk buying takeaway so you can save it for future meals.
17.) Buying a house for second year that is practically on Lidl's doorstep, so to avoid the queues!
18.) Watching a Seagull, on it's nest because it kind of feels like watching the nature channel, and let's face it you couldn't afford that!
19.) Joining countless online survey sites in the chance you might earn £5 or a voucher for some unheard of shop.
20.) The only money you have a lot of is 2ps, which is brilliant for 2p machines at the arcade. If you win something... well that's just the best part of your week.
Okay so there you have it. I'm sure there are so many more. So please let me know what you have all experienced, whether as students or not.
Step 1: Eye contact- it's extremely important to NEVER make any eye contact... with anyone. Only look at them at really bad moments, pause for a minute and then panic and look away. This is a really popular technique.
Step 2: Talk to people who clearly aren't interested in anything you say, about a really boring or overly complicated topic and forget the story half way through and start again-they'll love it! Perhaps even go off on a tangent because lets face it... who doesn't love a twist?!
Step 3: Laugh over dramatically. It's always REALLY cool looking when someone tells a joke that is of regular level of funniness, and you laugh so loudly and dramatically that you spray drink in their faces. Super Duper.
Step 4: Stand in a corner.
Step 5: Go bright red whenever someone addresses you. Because to be honest your face can never be too pink! And everyone loves pink!
Step 6: Make inappropriate come backs or 'kill' the vibe, by taking the banter too far, which ends the fun. They were having way too much fun anyway!
Step 7: Breathe heavily-because you always forget how to breathe when ever someone else is around.
Step 8: Walk up to people and accidentally stand too close, and shuffle away awkwardly, noticing the mistake. Turn it into a funky dance!
Step 9: Bring people's moods right down, with a sob story about your past. Smiling and fun is for losers anyway.
Step 10: Be overly polite to people. Use your 'please' and 'thank you' after everything you say! Even if someone is rude.... 'thank you'.
Okay so to all those reading I hope you realise I am of course joking. These things are all things I myself tend to do, and I am a very socially awkward person, I'm not sure why! So I thought it'd be funny to list all these key qualities of being social awkward. So to anyone who aspires to be socially awkward.... I hope these help.
P.S I used the words 'socially awkward' too much in that last bit.... how socially awkward of me....
Step 7: Breathe heavily-because you always forget how to breathe when ever someone else is around.
Step 8: Walk up to people and accidentally stand too close, and shuffle away awkwardly, noticing the mistake. Turn it into a funky dance!
Step 9: Bring people's moods right down, with a sob story about your past. Smiling and fun is for losers anyway.
Step 10: Be overly polite to people. Use your 'please' and 'thank you' after everything you say! Even if someone is rude.... 'thank you'.
Okay so to all those reading I hope you realise I am of course joking. These things are all things I myself tend to do, and I am a very socially awkward person, I'm not sure why! So I thought it'd be funny to list all these key qualities of being social awkward. So to anyone who aspires to be socially awkward.... I hope these help.
P.S I used the words 'socially awkward' too much in that last bit.... how socially awkward of me....
Is it just me, or do the little things irritate you the most? No, not just me? Good. Glad we've cleared that up!!
I don't know what it is, but a large amount of the little stressful things is sometimes enough to make you scream out loud. Today I am feeling very stressed! Tis a stressful moment! (slightly dramatic). And what I've realised is it seems to be the tiny details in things that piss us off the most ( excuse my language.... naughty! ). Right now I feel as though if there was a movie made about me, then this would be the part where there is a montage of me screwing up crumbled pieces of paper and throwing them into a bin, whilst some tense music plays. And to be honest there isn't even much to be stressed about at the moment. But it's the little things that have gotten to me! I thought I could make this a bit more amusing by listing the silly little things that irritate me the most, and perhaps you beauties could comment on what annoys you the most!!
'This is my Boyf'
One thing that really irritates me is the different names people nowadays term their boyfriends/girlfriends. Such as 'boyf' 'hubby' 'the missess' 'bf' etc. Now I'm sure even the most innocent people are guilty of using these at least once in their life, but grr do they annoy me. Why is it so many boys refer to their girlfriends as 'the misses'? Are you married to her? No, then she is your girlfriend not your 'missess'! Why does this annoy me? I don't know, it just does and even as I'm writing this I'm questioning why it annoys me.
Overly attached to Facebook
Okay, so I'm probably not alone is thinking that nowadays people are becoming way too involved and obsessed with Facebook. It seems as though people take part in things primarily for the purpose of later being able to upload it to Facebook or show off about it. What I also don't understand is people who seem to be in relationships with different people every week. Have they ever met these people? Where are they finding them? The reality of it is, that these people have probably never met, but feel good about themselves to be able to say they've had loads of relationships. Well you haven't really have you?
Bending down
Now this is a bit picky. But bending down is so annoying wouldn't you agree? It just involves to much bending of the knees. It makes me very hot and the blood rushes to my head. I try if I can to pick things up with my feet, in order to avoid the bending down scenario.
Pointless TV Shows
Now sometimes I can lie of the sofa for hours watching TV shows which are on really strange channels and take several pages of scrolling on the channel menu to find. But there are some shows out there that really irritate me and I don't know why. The kind you see and think 'eughh no one cares!!' . I feel as though the media is churning out whatever they can. And there's no need. I don't want to watch Bargain Hunt Omnibus thank you very much!
Overly Dramatic People
People who are convinced that everyone is interested in their business. No we aren't. You know, those people who put their whole life over social media and make out like we've all been waiting to hear about what they've been up to. I don't even know you. I don't remember even accepting your friend request, so no I'm not overly interested in how many boyfriends you've had etc. This isn't just happening on social media however. Some people when you speak to them, only talk about themselves and as soon as the topic turns to you, they aren't interested. So many self centred people about.
Bad Grammar
I'm sure I speak for many when I say I can't stand bad grammar. We all are guilty of accidentally spelling the odd word wrong every now and again. In fact I may read this post back and find mistakes. And that's okay- no one is perfect. But it's people who constantly spell things wrong or don't use the right punctuation ( which totally changes the sentence by the way!) really irritates me. I can't count the amount of times people have used the wrong 'Their' or 'Your' . Buy a dictionary!! And to be honest you'll all probably read this and judge me for any mistakes I've made. And do you know what... you should. I probably haven't proof read well enough if there are mistakes. But people who just don't even bother to spell correctly or constantly use shortened versions or words like ' ur'. Eugh annoying.
Okay so that is a few out of the many things that irritate me. What irritates you? Please leave comments as I'd love to hear from you all!
Overly attached to Facebook
Okay, so I'm probably not alone is thinking that nowadays people are becoming way too involved and obsessed with Facebook. It seems as though people take part in things primarily for the purpose of later being able to upload it to Facebook or show off about it. What I also don't understand is people who seem to be in relationships with different people every week. Have they ever met these people? Where are they finding them? The reality of it is, that these people have probably never met, but feel good about themselves to be able to say they've had loads of relationships. Well you haven't really have you?
Bending down
Now this is a bit picky. But bending down is so annoying wouldn't you agree? It just involves to much bending of the knees. It makes me very hot and the blood rushes to my head. I try if I can to pick things up with my feet, in order to avoid the bending down scenario.
Now sometimes I can lie of the sofa for hours watching TV shows which are on really strange channels and take several pages of scrolling on the channel menu to find. But there are some shows out there that really irritate me and I don't know why. The kind you see and think 'eughh no one cares!!' . I feel as though the media is churning out whatever they can. And there's no need. I don't want to watch Bargain Hunt Omnibus thank you very much!
Overly Dramatic People
People who are convinced that everyone is interested in their business. No we aren't. You know, those people who put their whole life over social media and make out like we've all been waiting to hear about what they've been up to. I don't even know you. I don't remember even accepting your friend request, so no I'm not overly interested in how many boyfriends you've had etc. This isn't just happening on social media however. Some people when you speak to them, only talk about themselves and as soon as the topic turns to you, they aren't interested. So many self centred people about.
Bad Grammar
I'm sure I speak for many when I say I can't stand bad grammar. We all are guilty of accidentally spelling the odd word wrong every now and again. In fact I may read this post back and find mistakes. And that's okay- no one is perfect. But it's people who constantly spell things wrong or don't use the right punctuation ( which totally changes the sentence by the way!) really irritates me. I can't count the amount of times people have used the wrong 'Their' or 'Your' . Buy a dictionary!! And to be honest you'll all probably read this and judge me for any mistakes I've made. And do you know what... you should. I probably haven't proof read well enough if there are mistakes. But people who just don't even bother to spell correctly or constantly use shortened versions or words like ' ur'. Eugh annoying.
Okay so that is a few out of the many things that irritate me. What irritates you? Please leave comments as I'd love to hear from you all!
DisneyLand
The early blue sky, like a tropical ocean, sat above our
heads, with an enormous orange ball of fire smiling down on us. The air was
fresh and crisp and the slight chill made the hairs on my arms stand up
straight like little soldiers. With our
rucksacks on over one shoulder, we all herded on like cattle, as we got checked
for sharp objects. There is always someone with something non-dangerous who
gets stopped. This time, an embarrassed, flustered, middle aged mother, who
stood patiently as the men emptied the contents of her tiny handbag, only to
find that the most dangerous object was a tampon. Meanwhile her two young
children created havoc play fighting further up the queue, resulting in the
poor lady having to hastily pull them apart.
Once through,
everyone split off in different directions but primarily all heading for the
same destination. As we approached, I rummaged through my pockets to find my ticket.
First I found an old lolly stick, which kept sticking to my fingers as I delved
in. Then, a small folded leaflet telling me why Jesus was my saviour lay at the
bottom of my coat's pouch. At last, I finally found what I had been looking
for. My yellow printed ticket with a cartoon dog on. I grasped it in my hand so
tightly (for fear of losing before I even reached the gates) that I almost gave
myself a paper cut on the palm of my hand. Both eager and exhausted, running on
no sleep for thirty hours, we stepped closer to the entrance. From where we
stood, all we could see was the busy crowd ahead and green metal booths that
had metal turnstiles letting people through one at a time. There was a glimpse
of colour beyond this, resembling our destination. The workers, standing at the front of the
booths, were dressed in navy cloaks, with matching skirts or trousers. They
welcomed people with their sleepy smiles, keeping up the facade that they were
full of life, when in fact they probably wanted to collapse on a chair. To be
honest, so did I, but the excitement was over powering me. Once we handed our
tickets in, we waltzed through the gates and, finally, we were there.
As the
entrance welcomed us, we felt relieved as if we were home once again. We fitted
in here as we were big kids at heart. With gigantic grins stretched across our
faces, we matched on. The sound of children laughing and gasping in astonishment
filled our ears with glee. The distant but fast approaching familiar music
created the highest level of nostalgia.
I breathed in the air, as if to take it all in, closing my eyes for a
second. Heaven. Suddenly I was brought out of my trance by something soft
hitting my head. A toddler scurrying past with a giant balloon in the shape of
a mouse, had not been paying much attention to where he was going, and then his
mother had sharply told him off.
Once inside
my senses were invited in by various wonders. The sweet subtle smell of sugary,
melted, sticky popcorn throttled my nostrils, until I couldn't help but crave
some. There was fuss just a few metres away from the Popcorn stand where a
young boy had accidentally dropped his popcorn and was desperately trying to
scoop it back up, whilst his mother noticed the stares and encouraged him to
leave it and promised him some more later.
We delved in further and further into the busy streets that had been
created for this place. Ice cream parlours, gift shops, restaurants and more
were on both sides. Looking around I could see that we were not alone, there
were hundreds of adults also enjoying the atmosphere; though I'm sure some
would deny, their guilty faces told all.
Even though
being an adult, I had never felt such happiness, and as silly or childish as it
seems, I think Disneyland was a place of escape. It's a place you can escape
the stresses of reality and run to. I had reached a point in life where I
needed to escape or at least hide for a bit and relax. Disneyland did this for
me. For a moment in time, I was able to forget. And to me, I felt at home, in a
place full of dreamers.
























